Thursday, May 29, 2008

"You just have to see that love is wrapped in beauty and hidden away in between the seconds of your life..."

"...If you don't stop for a minute, you might miss it"

It's one of the lines from the movie i just watched. after being bombarded with so many movies churned out from hollywood big machine, it's such a pleasure to discover a gem of an english movie coming from UK. it's called cashback.

got this movie off from my flatmate. watched the show without any expectations but at the end, i truly enjoyed the show. it was done with so much facets, the lines are brilliant. sensitive, profound and emotional. it's also real and true to life about how we all deal with things in life.

the story starts with an art student ben who just broke up with her girlfriend. he develops insomnia and finds it hard to forget her. he deals with it by working at sainsburys on the night shift. he meets different characters who to each, deals with time differently as they have to pass the time working at a sainsburys, which isn't the most exciting job. there, ben discovers that he could stop time and appreciate nudity of the female form. dang, this movie deals with naked women in such beauty, i almost turned straight for a second.

he starts to develop a relationship with the checkout girl and at the start, she was this pale, rather unattractive girl but as the movie continues, we see her beauty bloom and at the end, i see her in a completely different light.

i have to say this is one of the nicest movie i have watched in a long time. there is so much sensitivity in it, dealing with loss of love, a unique perspective of life, and love, and everything in between it.

i'll be catching two movies this coming weekend, indy jones and satc. i highly doubt the movies will make a mark on my mind as cashback did. but then watching an aged action hero combined with a glamorous, fashionable carrie, who's complaining.

Thursday, May 22, 2008

one night in bangkok - and a couple hours more

date: 19/05/08
place: mania sauna, bangkok
time: from 5am onwards

i was done, changing into my clothes, and then this guy caught my eye, sitting across from my locker. he smiled, i smiled back. goatee, small cute eyes, korean look i like. too shy to say hi, i walked passed him, went over to the bar area, looked back, he was looking. i pretended to look for something, and then gathered up enough courage and walked over. i said hi, made some small talk, got his name, C, originally from philipines. saw D was waiting, asked for his number and said i had to leave. he asked me to say but i had to go.

next day, rushed over to big c and got myself a 1,2, call prepaid. sms him if he would like to meet up, couple of hours later, got a reply "can i see you today". replied that i would like to meet at around 7.30 but totally no reply. msged two more times and completely no reply for over 4 hours, rather dissapointed, and told dave that i didn't get any reply. D suggested to call, which i did, and couldn't get through. consoled myself that his battery died therefore i couldn't reach him.

at around, 7 i got an sms and he asked me to meet him at central world. asked him to come over to arnoma but he doesn't know where, so i headed across the road to meet him. couldn't spend cos i told him i gotta go and have dinner. told him i'd meet him later at 9.30pm. went over to silom and he msged back that he can only make it at 10.30. at 10.30, he said he's at a temple @ siam and heading over now, so in the end only got to see him at 11.00. went over to sphinx. he told me that he was a singer in a band at two clubs. omg, a singer and i'm here at a karaoke with him. his first song was 'i want to give it all' by air supply. air supply i like but never heard of this song. nevertheless, it's a nice song and he sang well. i attempted to sing one song ' i don't wanna talk about it'. my performance was no better than a frog being strangled and forced to sing. he tried his best to back my singing up. sitting together, it was a nice special moment, that both of us connected and some chemistry.

after we left the karaoke, we headed to bug&bee and had a drink. guess this was a nice date, two strangers, from two different countries, getting to know each other in another country. we were wondering where to go next and then my hotel room isn't possible cos shaun is staying with me. but then after a while, i decided to drop S a msg but no reply. in the end, i told him just to follow me back. back at the hotel, i went up and dave was with S in the room. I asked permission if i could have an hour and also for C to stay over, and i guessed i was out of line as S was pissed off. So that's the end of the possibility of spending the night together with C.

I went to the lobby and informed C that we couldn't spend the night together. I walked C back to his place which was just down the road. I asked if it's possible to go to his place but he said he's sharing a studio with his flatmate. When we reached, he called his flatmate and found out that she's still out and will be back later. so then, i headed up to his place. i had a nice time. i shall spare the details, hehe. after that, i headed back to the hotel.

the next day, i thought of not seeing him again but somehow, we ended up meeting back at central world. i followed him back to his condo and we just sat by the pool, holding hands, not speaking much, while C was waiting for his laundry at the laundromat. when his laundry was done, he suggested we go down to Heaven so we jumped into a taxi. We'll with only 1 and half hours left before I leave, this was seriously one intense last farewell. when we hit silom, the traffic was so bad that we decided to detour back to mania. when we reached mania, they only open at 5pm and that's the time when i had to leave. so in the end, we just walked down silom, hands around the shoulder, knowing we only have a short moment to spend together. we went to a nearby shopping centre and had a coffee, then we went to the arcade and played a touch screen game. the sense of minutes going by and i had to leave, was a heavy feeling in my heart. so at 5, i jumped onto a motorsai and headed back. before that, i gave him a hug, but could see the disspointment on C's face...