a torchlight at a bar - slowly but surely...

it's sunday morning, and i just woke up earlier from the sounds of workers dismantling the structure at the community area downstairs. it is not usual that i wake up from surrounding sounds as i sleep very soundly. just had a week of two days of heavy drinking, thursday with magnus at home and friday night with kian, resulting with a hangover on sat morning. of recent, a certain emptiness with my life here, felt a certain restlessness, seeking to fill my jar of purposeness with something fulfilling at this stage. i prayed silently to God for his guidance and he has given me his answer, in his own way which i believe through my interpretation, the way to move forward.

i felt slightly different when i woke up this morning. i felt that there're some tasks i need to do. it started with cleaning my room and then having to pick up my bus tickets. whilst doing all that, messing around my itunes, i gravitated towards sheryl crow's music, organising the songs, checking out about her on wikipedia and her own website. reading more, she inspires me. she has collaborated with so many famous artists, won a big handful of awards, fought breast cancer, released her latest album expressing about the state of world we're in and the state of personal self and advocacy of positive change in this world.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sheryl_Crow

now, this goes back to me, what should i do with my own ability, in my own little capacity? one thing i've thought about is i always wanted my own child. somehow, i find that's a big and challenging task, so alternatively, i will put my efforts into sponsoring a child in need somewhere around the world. next is to find a suitable organisation to sponsor a child. based on immediate search on the internet, there are two options - World Vision and Children International. Will update more on my blog once i've made a choice.

another thought is to inject more love and passion into my job. afterall, i spend more than half of my waking life to work, so if i don't love it, what's the point?

well, as per the title of this blog, it's small steps that i have to take, nothing of a revolution, slowly but surely and for the torchlight, well, it's a small torchlight i took from the bar on Friday, a small guiding light out of the status quo i'm in.

i leave this entry with a song from Sheryl Crow.